Throwing Rebellion Out the Door

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“Son of man, you dwell in the midst of a rebellious house, which have eyes to see, and see not; they have ears to hear, and hear not: for they are a rebellious house.” Ezekiel 12:2

 
Here I am in Ezekiel 12 and I have the account of God sharing His heart with Ezekiel, telling him what He is going to do. The word of the Lord came to Ezekiel not just one time, but 5 times, in these 28 verses. And I need to understand that God’s judgment wasn’t about to fall on the pagan, but on the children of Israel, specifically Judah. This was a pronouncement on the family of God, the people of God, the “religious” people.
Well, those who were supposed to be leading the people closer to God weren’t concerned about God at all. So the people around them weren’t either. And Ezekiel was getting to stand out like a sore thumb here and declare their rebellion which wasn’t just about to be their destruction, but which had already begun to destroy them from within the minute they succumbed to that thinking.

 
Now, lest I think that I’m not like them at all, I had better check myself and understand what rebellion really looks like and how it begins. And I’ve come to the conclusion that rebellion is a lot closer than I thought and that there are a lot more children of God involved in it right now than you think, and it could be you or I.

 
The word used for rebellious here is the Hebrew meriy. It comes from marah. It’s a way to guarantee destruction. Marah mixes two components, one political and the other theological. It’s when we refuse to see God’s way or hear God’s voice. “This verb describes ‘the attempt of the subordinate to escape from a dependent relationship.’” (Skip Moen) But the problem is that we try to escape our dependency from our Creator God, from the absolute one, the One who alone rules by His divine right. It’s ludicrous. Think about it. I want to break free from the One who gives and sustains my life? I want to do my own way what I couldn’t even create in the first place? Instead of choosing the Tree of Life, I want to choose my own knowledge? Really? What good is it to know and experience good and evil instead of life? If life is on one side then death must be on the other. Adam and Eve weren’t the only ones who walked away from a relationship of full life and chose death in rebellion.

 
I mean, we’re dealing with God here. He’s our Creator, the Creator of everything. In Him is life and out of Him, where rebellion reigns, is His wrath. Isn’t it a shame that rebellion is so embedded in our hearts, that our hearts are so desperately wicked we don’t even know it? But God does and He can show us and change us.

 
The truth is that rebellion starts in our talk, and our thoughts, and our reasoning. We tend to call it rights and religion. But it’s really self-centeredness. We even think we are doing right and it’s harmless. Where’s our prophet when we need him?

 
What does the attitude of rebellion look like? Well, in the end it looks like Judah in Ezekiel’s day. But on the way, it looks like boys ridiculing a prophet for his baldness, or calling down fire and brimstone on a people because they don’t treat you right, or gossip, or talking your leadership down, or disrespect to your parents, or controlling someone else for your gain. It’s all the little steps of walking in your own way and your own plans and not seeking God’s will.

 
Skip Moen asks, “When the mystery of lawlessness operates, are we its restraints or are we its helpers?” The truth is that “Everyone who practices sin also practices lawlessness; and sin is lawlessness.” (1 John 3:4) Wait.  Sin is breaking God’s rules, right? When I don’t do what is “right” I’m a “bad” person. But when are my sins breaking laws? I’m allowed to do them by legal standards. But I break the law every time I sin?

 
Sometimes sin is translated as iniquity. Jesus uses this to describe wicked people. Paul uses it to tell what happens as we pursue our own desires instead of God’s. Is this what I”m like, am I filled with iniquity and terribly wicked?

 
Watchman Nee wrote, “Sin is a matter of conduct; it is easy to be forgiven of sin. But rebellion is a matter of principle; it is not so easy to be forgiven of rebellion.” Sin happens, but rebellion is birthed. Rebellion is mulled over and strengthened and chosen and latched onto. Rebellion is (that deep-seated principle within me that fights against the holiness of God, that wants to assert my independence and self-sufficiency.” (Skip Moen)  It’s about my attitude inside, in the heart of me. It’s the opposite of submission. Rich young rulers can keep rules much easier than they can submit. My basic rebellion is that I want to be in control. Submit? I don’t want to. It’s like spitting in the face of God. It’s pushing Him out of throne and putting me in His place. It’s like when Absalom made himself king against his father David. And we run around trying to do the same.
At that point it doesn’t matter if I’m obeying the rules or practicing the religious requirements. Rebellion is in my heart and flowing out. Even the wishing it were going my way is rebellion. Honestly, submission is hard. Our nature says, “No way!” But submission is the heart of finding God’s grace. Without it, all is sin, no matter what you call it or what you think it looks like.

 
Paul tells us, “Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might.” Now, I need to listen to this. If I want to be empowered, I need to submit. I need to submit to the one who is the ultimate delegate of authority and power. Only the Boss can give me this strength. See only, and I mean ONLY Jesus can supply this available power because it is His to supply. I don’t have it. I can just tap in. I’m just the vehicle. It’s not even about my authority and responsibility but about my usefulness. I’m the receptacle of His power, not mine. Rebellion is me being a power instead of Him. Not only can that not be but it’s ludicrous! I’m just the pipe built for Him to flow through.

 
So maybe I hear all this and I think I’m still not rebellious, maybe I should think a little more. “And if any one hears My sayings, and does not keep them, I do not judge him; for I did not come to judge the world, but to save the world. He who rejects Me, and does not receive My sayings, has one who judges him, the word I spoke is what will judge him at the last day.” (John 12:47-48) I can think I’m getting by.  I can think I’m God’s gift to the church and the people around me. I can delude myself and others. But when I’m measured up against the words of God and the words of Christ and I don’t match them, the truth will come out.

 
I don’t want to take this lightly. To reject Your sayings is to reject You. What are Your sayings? “But I say unto you…” How do you handle your anger? Do you call your brother “fool,” this person who was created in the image of God? Is reconciliation more important than being right? How about the thoughts in your head? Have you lusted already? Did you really love your wife as Christ loved the church and died for her, or was it all about you so that it was easy to leave her? I mean, what kind of oaths do I even have the power to make when I can’t even number my own days? Do I really let someone slap me on the cheek and then turn the other to him also, or do I retaliate? Do I love my enemies like You did? Do I bless those who curse me like You did? Do I do good to those who hate me, like You did? Do I pray for those who persecute me, like You did?
Are my thoughts and my reasons and my attitudes anything like Yours? Because the truth is that If I really want to be Your child, then I have to born of You, not of me, because that doesn’t come naturally from me. I have to learn to submit and submit and submit. And it’s not such a bad thing. It’s a hard thing but You can change my heart of stone and give me a heart of flesh like Yours. I want to throw rebellion out the door. If it means that I have to stand alone for you like Ezekiel and dig through a wall and look crazy, then that’s what I want You to give me strength to do. Why? “That I may be [the child of my] Father which is in heaven,” because You are the One who makes the sun to rise and not me.

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Ever More Faithful

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“Then the high officials and the satraps sought to find a ground for complaint against Daniel with regard to the kingdom, but they could find no ground for complaint or any fault, because he was faithful, and no error or fault was found in him.” (Daniel 6:4)

 
Did you ever hear the expression “aging with dignity?” I read today’s account of Daniel and that’s what comes to my mind. I mean, when was the last time in any movie about Daniel, he was depicted as a 70 year old man being lowered into the lion’s den? According to Biblical timelines, he was probably a little older than that but just knowing that he was there around 605 BC when he refused to eat the king’s portion and then this lion’s den incident took place around 539 BC, we can easily do the calculations and see that Daniel is no longer a young man. But what else we see is that over all these years he has been a faithful man. And his age doesn’t stop him from continuing to be faithful.

 
For every time I have thought, “God, this is too hard. I can’t do it,” or “God, I’m too tired to go on,” Daniel may have felt that way, but he certainly didn’t live that way. I see a man whose sites were set on God. I see this faithful man who, because he was faithful first and foremost to God, was able to continually be faithful to those he served and those around him, no matter their walk of life or religious beliefs. I see a boy who was loved by those around him because of his character. I see him grow into a man who continues to be loved by those around him because of his character, well, loved by those who respect a faithful character.

 
I mean, here he is brought under another conquering ruler. And here God provides Darius, who, like Nebuchadnezzar, wanted to surround himself with wisdom. So who impresses him? Daniel. Our Daniel is set as one of the three highest satraps over the kingdom. Now, Daniel does his job so well that he is preferred over all the counselors so the king was wanting to set him over the whole entire realm. Why again? Because there was “an excellent spirit” in him.

 
What does it mean that there was “an excellent spirit” in him? Maybe to the king it meant Daniel’s mind was far above everyone elses and his wisdom surpassed all. But don’t forget that the word for spirit here, “ruach” is also used for God’s very breath and His living Spirit, the Holy Spirit. Could it be that Darius saw that Daniel was guided by God? That Daniel had a relationship and knowledge from a God like no other?
Well, Darius saw something extra special in Daniel. But, the other officials weren’t looking that way. They were just plain jealous of Daniel. So, what do you do, when you don’t like someone? You try to find fault in them. They wanted to ruin Daniel in the eyes of King Darius. Only, he was so faithful to the laws of the kingdom and to God that he was squeaky clean. If they were going to catch him up, it would have to be in something that went against His God. So they created a situation that would fit their cause.

 
So much for character in these men. They weren’t about faithfulness. They were about getting their own way. If deception would get them there, then that’s what they would use. Now, I’m pretty sure that Daniel was supposed to have a say in things. But these fellows approached King Darius with an idea that had not been shared with Daniel. Only they said, “All the high officials, the prefects and the satraps, the counselors and the governors are agreed…” Really? I don’t recall Daniel being included. So here is King Darius thinking that Daniel, along with all the others, has established this ordinance that no one should petition any god or man for thirty days, except for the king, or they would be thrown to the lions. Because they said all had agreed, Darius signed the injunction.

 
Knowing that Daniel prayed three times a day, the satraps watched for their opportunity. They had him! They knew one thing about Daniel. He was faithful and he would be faithful to his God no matter what. And he was, just as he always had been. They bring Daniel before King Darius. The king spent all night trying to find a way around the law, but there was no way once a law was signed. He felt terrible and tried to find a way to rescue him. But the king was forced to command Daniel to be lowered into the lion’s den. It was out of his hands. It was out of his control. But the king held onto one hope, that it wasn’t out of the control of Daniel’s God. “May your God whom you serve continually, deliver you!”

 
Darius was a king who cared about Daniel. He cared about what was happening around him here. I know because he couldn’t sleep, he didn’t eat, he didn’t enjoy the king’s pleasures that night. Daniel was on his mind. The acts of the other satraps were on his mind. I’m supposing that Daniel’s God was on his mind.

 
The king didn’t wait, but at the break of day went to the pit. I think he was in anguish because God’s word says he cried with a lamentable cry. That sounds like a heartbreaking, heart wrenching kind of crying to me. And he called, “O Daniel, servant of the living God, is your God whom you serve continually, able to deliver you from the lions?” And imagine the state of the king’s heart when he heard Daniel’s voice answer, “O King, live for ever. My God has sent His angel, and has shut the lions’ mouths, that they have not hurt me: forasmuch as before Him innocency was found in me; and also before you, O King, have I done no hurt.”

 
So Daniel was lifted up and the deceitful satraps and their families were cast into the lions’ den instead. Only this time, the lions were not merciful at all. And before a whole nation, King Darius declared that Daniel’s God was a living God, steadfast for ever, whose kingdom shall not be destroyed, and whose dominion shall be to the end. He declared God to be a deliverer and a rescuer who works signs and wonders in heaven and on earth, who was even able to deliver Daniel from the power of the lions.

 
Now, what if Daniel isn’t supposed to be some unique and fantastic story? What if Daniel’s example is supposed to be one that we follow? I mean, most of the time Daniel was involved in normal affairs and normal life. Only he chose to live his every walking and every sleeping moment according to God’s ways and for God’s glory. He chose to be faithful in You, God. He didn’t choose just to be faithful sometimes, or only in the good times, but to be faithful. And so, when the hard decisions came, it didn’t matter how hard they were, he already knew the choice he would need to make, and he did it, he remained faithful no matter the cost. Because in truth, the cost of being unfaithful is far worse.

 
Jesus asked a question once, “For which of you, intending to build a tower, doesn’t sit down first and count the cost, whether you have sufficient fund to finish it?” (Luke 14:28) I need to be like Daniel and count the cost from the start so I already know that I have a sufficiency of all I need at any point down the road. Daniel’s life story reminds me of Paul’s words in 2 Corinthians 2, “But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of Him everywhere. For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing, to one a fragrance from death to death, to the other a fragrance from life to life. Who is sufficient for these things?” Well, who is, but God?

 
The truth is that Daniel wasn’t sufficient in and of himself. His sufficiency for every moment, for himself and for those around him, came from God. Paul continues in 2 Corinthians 3:5, “Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God…” God, You not only delivered Daniel multiple times, but you made his life a continual ministry of Your Spirit and of You. You call us to the same life today. Your grace and power is just as sufficient for me today as it was for Paul and Daniel, and anyone else who would choose faithfulness in You. May we become people who would rather glory in our weaknesses so that You and the power of God in Christ Jesus might rest upon us and the world around us would see Your glory manifested in the midst of our faithfulness to a God who is ever more faithful to His children.

Of Fasting and Feasting

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“Say to all the people of the land and the priests, ‘When you fasted and mourned in the fifth month and in the seventh, for these seventy years, was it for me that you fasted?’” Zechariah 7:5

So here is this specific day in verifiable history that some representatives of Israel from Bethel come to ask the priests a question as the temple is being rebuilt.  They want to know, “Should I weep and abstain in the fifth month, as I have done for so many years?”  They are asking if they should continue to fast religiously as they have been.  When someone says, “Do I have to keep doing that?” it tells something about their heart on the matter, doesn’t it?

And the word of the Lord of hosts came to Zechariah, this man who has already been given 8 visions by God in one day.  Listen to God’s reply.  “Say to all the people of the land and the priests, ‘When you fasted and mourned in the fifth month and in the seventh, for these seventy years, was it for Me you fasted?” Our motive matters.  You know our motives behind why we do what we do.  You knew exactly what was going on in their hearts just as You know what is going on in mine.

Your heart, Lord, is filled with zeal and burning desire for Your purpose and Your people who are a part of that purpose.  You have continually chosen to reveal Your heart to Your people and here again, through Zechariah, You were choosing to reveal Yourself.  From creation, You have responded with zeal for us and You are waiting for us to respond with that same zeal and love back to You where we love You with all our hearts, souls, minds, and strength.  You woo us with Your promises and blessings and presence.  You desire to woo us into wholeheartedness because You are wholehearted.  When do You step up to us and say, “Do I have to love you?  Do I have to lavish Myself on you?”  I  suppose there was one day in history when You let that thought come into Your mind.  “ Lord, take this cup from Me.”  But You didn’t continue to entertain that thought.  Your answer wasn’t, “Yes, I have to die for you.”  Your answer was, “Yes, I want to die for you because this is the purpose and glory of God in Me, to love this much.”  God is love, really.

The temple was supposed to be a house of prayer, a place for meeting with God and encountering You.  This temple that was being rebuilt had come with its share of discouragement during its rebuilding.  Why?  Because humans get discouraged.  Humans take their eyes off of their greatest Encourager.  So You had raised up two prophets, Haggai and Zechariah to inspire them again.  But even after that encouragement, they needed to be reminded and repent. 

Now most of these fasts had been initiated in response to tragedies that had occurred during the Babylonian captivity.  They weren’t God ordained fasts in Scripture.  Since a new era was dawning, should they continue those fasts?  It’s not a bad question, except that they had been observing the fasts based on ceremonial commitment, and that is never the idea of a fast before the Lord.  You, Lord, are looking for hearts that are coming to You in repentance and soul searching.  You are looking for souls that aren’t coming to You because they have to, but because they want to be right with You and right with others.  You want those to come who are truly weeping because they want a deeper relationship with You and feel they are missing something.  You want those to come who are showing how dependent they are on You.  If I have to come to You and ask You, “Do I have to fast?”  then I am already revealing my heart and my lack of zeal for You.

Fasting is not about duty.  Fasting is about relationship.  Fasting is not about having my prayers answered until after I’ve sought for my heart to be right.  Fasting is about lining up with You and seeking Your will.  Fasting is all about You and all about me becoming all about You.  Fasting is all about me lining my zeal up with Yours. 

The main part of fasting is to be sorry for my sins and to seek Your glory to be released in greater measure.  Fasting has to be accompanied by  “a genuine desire to know, love, and obey the Lord.”  It takes radical dedication to the Lord.  It takes Your grace to fast and pray wholeheartedly. 

It’s easy to avoid fasting.  It’s easy to avoid setting our hearts straight with You.  It’s easy to keep on keeping on the way we are.  It’s tough stuff that takes commitment to come before You and say, “Lord, what is wrong with me?  Show me what is not right in my heart and life and change me.  These things are so wrong in my life.  I need You so desperately.”  It’s easier to feed my own desires.  It’s just easier to eat and be happy and go along my “merry” way.  But it’s not better.

I’m so glad You didn’t love us the easy way.  You sought to love us with all Your strength, all that You are, all that You have.  It’s not too little for me to think that, wow, I want to love You back like that!  It’s not that I ought to, even though I ought to.  A love like that inspires me to love like that.  A love like that swells up inside of me not because it’s forced to but because it is realized.  It empowers me in Itself. 

But the problem wasn’t just with fasting.  Even when they feasted, when they ate and drank, it was all for themselves.  The whole focus wasn’t on their relationship with the Lord or His purposes and I can fall into that same danger.  Fasting is for remembering God and lining myself up with Him.  Feasting is for remembering God and being grateful and rejoicing in Him because we’ve lined up with Him.  Both are because of a desire and acting upon a deeper relationship with You.    We demonstrate that relationship through our obedience, not because of “have to’s” but because of an outpouring of love from our own hearts and lives back to You.

Spending time with You in fasting and seeking Your face leads to a right relationship with You.  That right relationship with You leads to seeking justice, mercy and compassion for the lives around us.  It leads to loving You, God, and loving people.  It leads to obedience because we get it, not because we have to.  It leads to despising evil.  It leads to caring for and doing something about the widow, the fatherless, the strangers.  How can You bless me if I won’t even listen to You and walk in Your ways?  Why would I even expect You to?  If I want You to bless me, then my only choice is to have a right relationship with You, and to line my thoughts and actions up with You, because You are the blessing and every blessing comes from You and is in You. 

Jesus, You set the example of fasting and prayer for us.  I mean, You were God so You didn’t have to fast and pray, but You wanted to because it was all about relationship with God.  It was all about honesty of Your whole life and person.  You did it to show us how we could have a deep relationship with You.  Just like with Zechariah, You were showing us the zeal of God for us and how we should be as zealous for Him.  In Your heart was a burning desire for Your people and Your purpose.  We see that in You. 

I need to ask myself if I am like these men of Bethel or the church of Laodicea.  Am I hot or cold or just lukewarm as I come to You when I fast and when I pray or in my obedience in life?  Do I think I’m rich, and prosperous, and not in need, when really I am wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked?  This is what fasting gives me an opportunity to find out, as I take the time and effort to actually fall before You and draw near to You.  Is my heart looking to find out these things?  Or am I just going through the motions.  I’m so glad You love me enough to reprove me and discipline me, so teach me to be zealous and repent.  I want to hear Your voice.  I want to open the door and let You in where ever I need to in order to set things right in my heart, my mind, and my life.  I want to have an intimate relationship with You where we sit at the table together.  I have ears, so let me use them to hear, to listen, to be changed, and to obey.  You know, I can’t eat at the table with You if I don’t sit down at the table with You first. 

This is a bigger thing than ceremonial worship and obedience.  This is true worship.  It has nothing to do with an outward show unless that comes from a changed heart leading to a changed life.  It has everything to do with sincerity and seeking.  The poor and contrite tremble at Your words and I want to also.  I want to be changed by Your words.  I want to be filled with chased and racham, mercy and compassion.  I want to show goodness, kindness, and faithfulness after that of Your own heart to others.  I want to show the kind of love or pity that a woman does for the child in her womb, just like You do for me.  I want to reflect You before others.  I want to bear Your image.  I want to reflect Your heart to the world.  I want to show them how much better the culture of God is then the world’s culture.

Lord, I want to come to You with a repentant heart.  I want to learn to seek You like that and Your will in my life.  I don’t want You to turn me over to myself.  I don’t want to reject Your words.  I want to respond to You and experience Your responding to me.  So Lord, teach me how to pray and fast and live wholeheartedly.  I’m not good at it, but You are, and You are the best Teacher ever.